a great weekend ahead i hope. finally didnt work for this week. i noe money is impt. but im really tired of their damn nonsense. well enough. money is impt, but rest and fun is oso impt. gonna go shopping with baby ltr after tep cos i've got no date(: baby is always the one who date me, if nt is only bsu clique. can c wat a loner i am right?(: so ltr im gonna get the m)phosis top for cny i hope. haha and wanna shop for vday dress and oso shop for smth to wear on tmr(: and sat which is tmr, gonna go shopping with my sweetheart panda to buy baby's vday present and oso smth to wear for tmr which im gonna aim ltr on. ahha and after shopping with sweetheart panda, gonna meet the rest of bsu clique to go dinner and zouk(: hahaha cos its RONGCI BDAY!!(: gonna wish him only when tmr comes(: so sun is family outing day!! zoo zoo zoo!! going to sg zoo with daddy mummy dajie dajiefu erjie(and her frens will meet us there?) baby me and the 3 naughty jun- le;de;zhi!! (: big family isnt it. damn looking forward to it!! (:

just some feelings tt came at a sudden. im just feeling emo again. i dunno why, in this morning when i came to sch and my mind just think of him again. the impact he gave i guess is too big? till after such a long period, im still thinking of the memories. when we go for ice tgt, coffee shop, park. the sweetness yet bitterness, is killing me slowly.

ok im looking for students nw. yes dun suspect. haha i wanna teach tuition to lower pri student. pls pls pls, if any kang tao, north area, as near to yishun as possible, pls INTRO ME!! (: thanks. and ive been looking for another job. im so so so short of money. hope jade's boss will reply to me asap(:

one last emo entry. i dunno why but seriously i feel so far frm all of you. am i anti social? nope. the reason of nt spending the short time with u all is all bcos i feel tt no 1 have ever spare a thought for me. i noe some have been through where i am nw, but i've nv keep u all waiting b4, always allow u all have enough time to enjoy this short break. but no 1 have think of me @ all. i noe u all have lotsa of time, but bcos none had think of me. i gave up of spending time with u all le. and tts the reason tt im so far from every1 of you? ive nv blame, dislike any1 of u till nw. but im jus feelquite disappointed. ive been keeping all these to myself for long and im real pressured by it and bursting out the sadness le. i may be very happy go lucky but im oso a human. and i noe how to be sad and disappointed. sometimes i would really wish to find u all, but think of myself feel so neglected, i really cant help but stop myself frm spending time with u all le. seriously i feel far from you all. watever happening around, i noe nuts. or not even a nut maybe? im sorry all to let you all down cos i feel this way tt i shdnt be feeling. but im sorry, i just feel so left out and forgotten by everyone of you. i feel so no value and feel my existence is so useless to u all. cos even i noe last min abt the plan of smth, initially i wanted to ask u all to go, but think abt it, i feel tt there no need to do so. cos if u all really do want me go, u all will always find ways to tell me. even is till the actual day, u all bothered to still continue trying in contacting me and ask me, ill still go. sorry for this emo entry. i hope im nt behaving the way u all dun like, but im sorry tt i really feel so suppressed by all these. im sorry ba..maybe since young, im jus so a loner.