talk abt thurs 1st. went to nyp loungue help out with panda and xuexue for open hse event. slack but shit work. hate those who keep bowled over n over again like nobody's business. hello! we r nt machine. its MANUAL work k! omg. but gd thing is we get to pLay arcade games which we 3 really enjoyed alot. saw the performance by fbodz, its great. but i dunno y im feeling upset. felt so useless and think i shd go n die.

me and xuexue, 25thJAN

wahaha panda me xue

@ NYP loungue(: LOVES

haha self pic when helping out(:

ALL THESE KILL WE 3!!

smth similar is appearing again. a leopard nv change its spot. and i understand the meaning of this nw. learn how to be a better person 1st be others change their thinking of you. im so tired of all these shit.

so fri, help out again @ nyp loungue. got muscle ache alr at tigh here n there. went back csc @ 1plus. chiong for the last 15 surveys to be completed for 3hrs iguess? today's really nt my day? missed the time for interview. damn disappointed and upset. after finishing the calls, met my classmates to be @ atrium and watch some performance. hees nicenice. saw my dearest lovely fatass. always so happy to see her! dun say i forget u k? LOVEYA very much, i hope u really noe tt(: after tt, went to woodlands with siong, joneh, de, yang to sakae for dinner! thanks joneh so much for the dinner. afteer dinner, free movie, again frm joneh to watch kungfu mahjong 3. GREAT SHOW!!! laughed till pengz. "sexual intercourse, penetration and ejaculation, f.u.c.k" quoted frm the show. HAHA (: really enjoyed myself so much with them(:

thanks for being there, all. finally let out, feel a lil better indeed. but @ the same time, so hurt and upset. couldnt help stop thinking abt it. but can only continue telling myself to stop thinking of all these shit when i was not even remembered by someone who i always rem? life isnt gd for me anyway. saw them almost everyday and i dun feel gd @ all. not @ all cos it hurts and pain. and till nw, i dunno the reason. and i guess like wat u say, doesnt matter anymore? i seriously dunno y am i feeling so upset when i hate you so much, when u r just no diff frm a jerk. damn it when u can fucking take a gift and lend ppl around you anytime u like. so i can see how much u respect and treasure the gift. i feel so mixedup. hate you @ the same time, feel like talking to you again. i wish things nv happened at the 1st pLace. maybe im the 1 at fault? and i think maybe i am really at. soareyoustillthinkingofmerightnw? n.o.-

baby, you r a treasure to me. been through so much. but probs seems still to be nv ending. im so at loss at who's the wrong one and right one. but i dun really wanna find out. but i hope things will get better after this period of time. if you really noe wat u wan, u wont bother and hesitate and will tell me straight away you noe you still wan and love me. but u didnt, and i guess indeed u really need time to straighten out ur thoughts, think of wat you want and wat to do. many things may happened, my mind may betray u, but i jus wanna let you noe, tt 1 things im for sure you are who i wan and one who can accept me for who i am. im nt ending it, but pausing it so to be better after things r being replayed. ill be waitin ba, loveyou.. truely.

and to those frens of mine, if u r feeling upset. dun be k? learn how to smile watever things happened. it will bring you luck(: so great to have u all by my side, thanks joneh, siongsiong, panda, bestfren, fatass, jiali, xiang, jiezhi, xuexue and cd. thanks all of ur ears. and others who dunno wat happened, dun ask y cos ill be fine, but still got to thanks all for being my fren and part of my life(: