went to town. went wheellock and had sakae for xmas dinner! its the best xmas i ever had in my life! yeah so we ate so many things. full and delicious (: had gift exchange, and gave sinhuii my pressie~ hees im so proud to give her those pressie!! hahaha it is all DEEP FROM MY HEART!! sinhui i hope you like it (: yeahh. and well after dinner, shop around and then decided to stay put in TCC @ ceine. reached tcc at 11plus. ordered our coffee.. played da bian dai dee!! had lotsa fun. went off at abt 1.15am..and then bad things happened!!

went to wait for NR 1. and damn it. the NR1 we got in got into accident half way through the journey, @ the shaw house the road there. window glass break all over! argh f***. my 1st time experience. hurt my hand. super pain nw.. leg abit swollen.. but thank god no 1 injured seriously. no 1 is dead and thank god the driver is alright. liang, me, sinhui, xueli and char was so afraid till we forget to note down the bus no. or watever. and we jus take a cab hm instead. yeah so damn. went hm cried like shit cos i am so afraid. wake baby up and keep crying. finally he humour me to bed and got better nw. nt in a gd state to work today so i didnt work.. but work tmr.

saying abt work tmr. im f***ing dulan and sad. yeah was supposed to go expo and can work with those i like and oso baby. but damn say wat lAst min dun need ppl then wan me go tpy. damn. its so Far frm baby. i wanna celeb xmas with him and shit god damn him. and he told me there need 1 promoter for tmr instead of 2 alr. and now i heard tt felicia HIS SISTER is going there to work!!! AND I ASKED HIM AGAIN IF THERE'S ANOTHER ONE GOING TO WORK THERE. HE SAID NO. so if tmr turn out to be felicia there, ILL HATE HIM FOR LIFE. nw my mood is like shit. FUCKING SHIT. IM SO EMO. I WANNA CRY. I SO FUCKING DU LAN. SO SO SO FUCKING DU LAN. SO FUCKING FEEL LIKE DYING. SO FUCKING HATE MY LIFE. SO FUCKING HATE THE WORLD..IM SO FUCK UP NW!!! IM SO DEPRESSED. haiss. I JUS DUN WANNA WORK ALONE TMR. HOW CAN TT KEN BE SO BIAS. BE DAMN IDIOT. IM FUCK UP LA. i guess onli life with bsu mates can cheer me up alot. life other than tt sux. or even sometimes with baby. i feel veri fuck up. i dun enjoy my life at all. dun enjoy any moments at all except with bsu. haiss :(