finally i got my thinking sort out. no longer feeling so miserable abt this. but another came up. hais. i seriously find so hard to carry on with my life. with everything. i dun wish to reveal anything im thinking abt. i jus feel that since young, no matter how much effort i put into *that particular issue*, i always failed. i feel so far so far. i feel dumb lousy and idiotic. i feel like so different. watever i have done. i always think every1 think im so OUT. i dunno. i always tried my best to be the one but no matter efforts i put in, for *whoever so and so, i always nv passed. i dunno wat have i done wrong. i really dunno. there's so much things i wanna say. but there's so much things i cant say cos i noe definitely no 1 will understand how i feel. even how close whoever you r to me, u will still think i jus being bo liao. i jus feel out, feel alone in this world. i cried so much. but no 1 noes y. imreallylonely.im really so alone. cananyone understands? no one i guess. i jus wish to isolate myself. since im so all alone. i jus wanna continue like this. csc life yeah sux. take it as im a crybaby or wat. ya i am a crybaby. so what. ya i broke down today. i cried so hard. cried so badly. i just couldnt take it. im so stress out so tired of all the shits. i dun wan . i always tot god loves me. god has reasons to give me this life, i believe to be good. but i guess i no longer believe. cos i dun feel good at all. not at all. i feel so miserable. very.
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