all these are how i feel nw..when i'm alone i think alot alot..today panda and charlene nt around..pean bz with her interview. i'm lonely. and i realli think alot. i wanna cry. i hate this life of mine at the same time love it. fuck up fuck up life.

i cant slp everynite. i stayed up every nite and make myself occupied cos i dun wanna think.
i am upset cos of a bastard.
i am emo-ing cos i cant imagine u can cause such a big impact to me.
i am sian cos i'm alone.
i am fuck up-ing cos i cant imagine how bastard you r.
i am angry cos i feel so cheated.
i have hatred cos you realli sux. you changed my life. damn.
but i feel loved cos at this point in time, baby you're still giving me strength.

i realli cant make myself to forgive and forget anymore. take it as i petty. i am bitchy. i sux. i dunno issit my prob. but you r just so a bastard. ihateyou. i realli do so. i dun wish to see you damn it. you made my life so miserable. you made me fall into depression again when i jus recovered. you really hurt me alot. and to that fat bitch. i always thought i am so bithcy and veri jian. i cant imagive u r more bitchy and jian than me. i hate you i realli do so. BADDIES GO TO HELL. I HATE YOU ALL!!