i am so bored. so down. so no mood to slp. i feel sick..super sick. vomited today n yday. no appetite. sian. 1.45am, i wish i could just close my eyes and slp and tmr will be another better day..but all these r deceiving myself. i dunno y. and i realli dunno how. all my smiles are so fake. i wanna be real happy. well, too much not to be let out, can only say, eventually i'm the 1 who get hurt most. but thanks baby, you're my strength (:
thanks for all ur love and care for me..i can nv repay but onli wanted love you like how you love me. i promise you i'll try.

went to meet baby jus nw, went chinatown-ing. made a necklace, abit big but quite nice, cost me $18. well, quite exp actually..but i dunno. couldnt stop spending when my pay fuckin owe me for so long. i'mseriouslybroke. VERY. god of fortune pls save me. i will bet on 4D this week, but well doubt gd results will be out. cos i'mSWAY. SUPER.

few hrs ltr will be another boring day. well. i'm seriouslyFAT if tep goes on. couldnt help and control myself from eating. i hate FOOD at the same time, i love it . arghh.