today slacked at home. met eileen twiny at 4.30pm at douby gaught! haha but i'm late for half an hr..lols! so is 5pm at douby gaught! went to shop for things..headed to orchard! ate ajisan..we shared (: haha shop shop shop~ oh ya twiny! sorry for today abit nt payin attention..was thinking of alot things..realli sorry abt it! loveyou still! muacks! went back to yishun, met baby cos he jus knock off..! ate famous amos i bought together! haha 200g of famous amos and we finished it! can u imagine how fat am i? OMG LOR..I THINK I SERIOUSLY NEED DIET..PLS..i feel seriously so no confident of myself..why others can be so slim and pretty but i look sux! AND WORST FAT! arghh. OK! fine. home sweet home! baby stayed till 12.20am and went home.. (: happy happy!!

i'msoafraid.tellmyselfi'llbefine.yeahi'llbe.
thissospecialfeelingsmademeupsohighandthendownsofast. imbadlyinjured. bleedinmyheart.

baby,sorryforeverything. iloveyou (:
ibrokedowntoday. stoptreatingmelikethis. u'resomehowabastardattimes. fuckinhurt.

well..actually feel so bad but happy..i shdn't have take it but then..arghh dunno my character is always like this. hatemyself. ok after tt went to chimjes bar to drink and chill out..ordered islander..it's nice (: haha chill out all the way till 1am~ then we walked all the way to lau pa sat ate desserts and then home sweet home! (: reach home at around 3am..SLP SLP SLP all the way till 3pm..lols 12hrs!!

baby is workin today~ so i got no work and nth to do! so rot at home nw.. (: *headache

fri tep again. routine..haha went fj ate western food in the morning for breakfast + lunch..suuper super fat liao lor..and after tep went orchard met baby to collect his phone and after tt went marina sq to meet his classmates to have dinner..hees billy bombers! eh not bad but not realli to my liking..hees.. (:

sat worked at ps starhub..hees fun fun (: slack. tiring and almost fell aslp..sony ericsson have some new models out..i like z610i pink (: hahaha abit tempted but NO! haha dun waste..hees and FAT met baby after work to eat mac as supper! omg lor!

sun, lots of things happened. hais dear twin dun be silly, this is part and parcel of life..dun make it so miserable ok? i love you! met xiao ming at orchard, sorry panda i'm late!! real sorry..so went mystery shop at lucky plaza..super idiotic there..i hate that place! went hans again after finish mystery shop..late lunch..and after tt xiao ming went home and i waited for baby to knock off..after he knock off we went to eat BK. arghhhhhhh FAT FAT FAT!!!

ltr meeting baby! like finally, haha wanna go shopping with him! wanna buy my white nail polish and gold nail art! (: and of cos 1 top! baby said he will buy for me all..omg and tmr i am getting my anna sui necklace! and baby is the 1 who buy for me too! haha love baby so much!! he basically fufil my needs most of the times! haha (: superb long didnt shop with him le, cos nw both of us have our own schedule, oso not much time to acc each other, at most a dinner..haha actually planned to shop with him on tues, but he wanna work..so well..got to find my own activities to pass time le! (:

sat working at ps starhub! (: i hope work turns out fine cos it's been 2-3 weeks tt i didnt work..new products dun even noe. arghh
sun mystery shop with xiao ming! panda panda! (:

my dear twin, rem i'm always there (: pls, dun do anithing silly cos think of how much i love u!! waitin for ur call!

I can see how you're caring, considerate and kind,
The way that you are just sticks in my mind,
It's so lovely to know someone like you,
You make me feel special by things that you do,

I love the look in your eyes when you speak to me,
The sound in your voice is meant to be,
I trust you and know that you trust me too,
Everything that happens, I know we'll get through,

So now that I've told you these few simple things,
I hope you understand the joy that you bring,
I love you in every possible way,
Much more than words could ever say.

i'm so glad that u're MINE (:
thanks baby.. i love you (:

bsu team 1 happy family!! (:

craving for tian ji zhou!! omg..i am seriously getting fatter as day goes by!! i seriously need to be on diet..even baby oso say i'm fat.. baby u made me so sad! argh.

fri comes again! our 23rd mthsary (: went dinner at ninja with baby..lols..nice..but of cos super exp..both of us ate $53.45 hahaha..lihai hor? well. but i love the food there..jap food jap food! (: thanks baby for this dinner..every monthsary without fail is gd food..muack! hahaha met xiang and the rest of them at just noodle..hees..after tt walk walk a while! haha home sweet home! (:
on the way home, my dear twin called..omg..she always make me worry..i always got the urge to rush to find her immediately when she called..ger..dun be too upset abt ur life..u always have me around ok! I LOVE YOU (:

sat sat! haha met jiali at khatib, then xiao ming at douby gaught then bugis with charlene! ate BK..super filling and full..AND AND AND FAT FAT FAT!! ARGHHH!! sad. went shop shop a while..well bought an anna sui de necklace. cost me $18. wtf. but baby give me the money back after tt..so sweet of him! love baby! (: lols..saw 1 pink top, wanna get it..but but i got no money..wish to buy it =x hahaha but..dunno leh..hahaha! no money la. dun think so much yet.! met baby at around 6..shop around at northpoint for sometime..lols saw so many ppl tt i dun wish to c. sian. cos i dunno how to react when i saw them..awkward? well. home sweet home. went to bed lols and slp..baby use comp..all the way till 10.30pm..haha wake up..went 200+ prata-ing with daddy mummy and baby! haha and home sweet home..SUPER FAT U NOE! PRATA AND SO LATE LOR! OMG OMG OMG OMG I TURNED FAT LIAO LOR! SHIT HOLE GONNA ON DIET SERIOUSLY!!

lols..tmr dunno whr to go. sian..wanna trim my eye brown..it is getting thicker. I LOOK FREAKING UGLY AND FAT NOWADAYS SUPER SAD. I WANNA SLIM DOWN arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

tok abt tues, haha finished workshop at around 10am..went mac to have hotcakes as breakfast! love hotcakes..i like it! hees..lunch-ed at north with classmates, super love them all! hees..and went free access to do proj..guess wat? at 4plus we went jogging! it's been super long since i exercise!! gonna do tt routine every week! hope to slim down!! i'm getting fat.seriously! and wat? after jogging i ate mac fries. damn it like spoil my own plan..hate myself! hahaha! after tep, went chinatown with jiali and jiezhi..well..spent AGAIN..have been spending non stop since fri..arghh super broke..bought 3 belts..love it! cos me around $20. shit!

today! wahahah happy happy day! (: met xiao ming at douby gaught, went marina sq KBOX and sing! woohoo super happy (: enjoyed so much in the kbox, the food, the feedback, the songs! lols we 2 had lots of fun! well..after singing, went bugis shop! haha spent again! shit and this time around is up to $70+ - 80 including charges for kbox..arghh. but super happy actually lols..bought 3 t shirt, 1 super dolly top and 1 skirt! haha super happy and nice! (: and we saw a ger, think 1 or 2 yrs younger than us STOLE! omg and get caught, instead of crying, she's down there actin innocent and plead tt kind who caught her. omg -_-" anyway tts cool of her for nt cryin! lols..ok and nw, i'm super broke again! and i wanna save up $50 to buy 1 bag which i long to buy it..xiao ming wanna buy brown de..but she's still considering!! oh tokin abt xiao ming, omg her returns r nt bad too! hahaha she bought 1 or 2 t shirt, cant rem..haha and 1 cosmetic bag, 1 skirt too, and 1 super nice spag top!! hahaha and ming ming look superb gd in the skirt and spag top..lols shock me sia when i c her sooo prettyy..mi dao le! hahahaha..xiao ming and i r gettin so vain! lols..we make up when we go out nowadays! omg! hahaha but we jus enjoyed it! (: and our policies, NO KIDDO THINGYS ALLOWED, AND OSO BUDGET IS $10..and 90% of our returns meet our policies..SUPERB HAPPY!! ..after tt, met baby and he sent me hm..hees gave him his present for our 23rd mth le..he loves it..i'm happy too (:

fri is gonna be our 23rd mth..time fliess..things changed, but we r still there (: jus 1 more mth to 2 yrs..hope we can pass beyond tt ba.. (:
well. tep starts, life got better..but i seriously miss my twin! TOTALLY! u noe wat, smth's missin in my life without her companion..she's the best i can found..lovessss TWIN!! i hope u c this..i'm always be by ur side, no matter wat happens..i may nt be free everytime but i will always try to give u the care n concern which i hope u wanna accept..love u ger!
also my dearest babe, saw her in mac yday! superb happy..still as lame..but cute..seriously love her..may nt be hanging out with her as much..but she can nv be replaced! lovesss..
omg i think i miss alot ppl.. and wat..i am superb happy! i realised how much i love my classmates..seriously miss them..and my r/s with xiao ming panda is superb..i am glad to have her companion! hope we stay like this forever (: PANDA PANDA I LOVE U! (:

knock off at 5.30..super happy..went home ate dinner with baby..and then went out after dinner to meet xiang and rest..hees watched you,me and dupree with them..erm not a veri nice show..but still okay okay lor..then it was around 11plus when we finished watchin the movie..it was so damn hazy lor..super hard to breathe..well..ming ming xiang xiang and jiezhi came my hse MAHJONG! (: hahaha we bought alcohol to my hse..1/3 chattin 1/3 playin and 1/3 drinkin!! hees..so played mahjong till 3plus near 4..and then i cooked supper for them!! maggi mee again! (: hahahaha.. so after supper straight go slp..super fattening lor..arghh!!

they went home at abt 6plus 7am..then i went to slp till 11am and wake up again to meet xiang and jiali! (: went to far east and ate kfc..then sit at kfc and slack with them, and kahsiong and joneh joined us and we gossip gossip all the way till 4plus then shop shop a while and went back to yishun and had dinner at 925..after dinner met the rest of them to go yishun park to play candles! (: super fun day..hahahaha and i walked a romantic path with alif~ hahahaha my 1st time ever so romantic with my best fren (: hees..so went supper again with jimmy, yang, cheng de and quan zhi at my hse nearby coffee shop..hees after tt home sweet home! (:

and sun! wake up early AGAIN to meet xiao ming panda..went city plaza with them to do our mystery shopping! arghh wat a borin job!! well..after tt went shopping at far east again with xiao ming..ate hans..haha nt bad but super full..after tt shop..guess wat..we both bought a panda shoe..custom make de..super happy! our trademark (: love xiao ming! hahaha then we bought socks..haha at 6plus went back yishun to go baby's hse..rushed out my data to send to siang mui..super stress like tt..haha then at nite went prata with baby..hahaha so home sweet home!

today sian. (:

well..so goes like this, it's only the fourth day of tep only and wat, we got a presentation today..tts so fast omg..and feeling super stress and at time slack..lols wonder bsu is stress or slack..arghhh..so was rushing and we got no more time..so xiao ming reached my hse at 9plus pm and we started to do proj..well..not a bad day..fun and happy indeed..although tiring and suffering but i realli did enjoy myself loads..without her companion at night, i guess i will be veri sad and alone doin proj throughout the night..hahaha so we happily chatting, listening to oldies, singing and crazy-ing all night! haha..soat 7amplus when we got to go out, we still didnt managed to finish..so rush through all our way till 2pm, finally get it done the last min..! super song and relax now..

well so was waiting till 6pm to sign out and home sweet home nw! think i need to get a big big big and long long long rest..tmr is mid autum..well who shd i choose to acc? hahaha a hard prob to solve!

i'm a sinner. aint a gd ger. but a bad ger. love me for who i am?

it's onli the 2nd day, there's a proj to be done..thurs presentation..sian..scared..arghh..well..took 2 weeks off for tep..so i could get 2 days off in weekdays..pay's nt here..so meaning money is nt here..i am poor..onli $3plus..argh.

i am tired, both physically and mentally..i need a rest. give me a break. i cant take it. leave me all alone then, i dun wan a miserable life anymore. i hate my life. and esp. myself

work on sat sun at habourfront..work is fun too..cos superb slack.. (:

today start of tep.. great to be with 1 of my musketeers, xiao ming!! superb happy!! (: same team as her too..well.. great to have some1 u noe with u (:

upset..who am i..i dunno anymore.. ...y mus heaven make fun of me..