ok here to update..life is boring..is dead..is tired..for me..i find no meaning in life..well..first say abt my cost acc ica taken last fri..i flunk it again..cool of me to flunk every test taken..fucked up. after test went to suntec meet baobeii, went to tbc to take phone then acc him to lunch..after tt went to buy many junk food to eat..fucked up me..ate so much..realli gettin to hate myselff more..i'm FAT! i cannot take it..i am goin on diet now.. NV WANNA EAT JUNK FOOD..i hope i control..ok back to topic..after EAT! went pc show to shop shop..but actually bought nth..jus walk around the place..after tt we went to sit down chat chat n rest..then waitin for sm to come..bring him to tbc and interview..he say he flunk it..but i dunno..didnt get any reply oso..erm then we went back home..then baobeii went home quite late..made me soo tiredd.. find the top part boring? ya i think soo..haiss..my life is boring wat..tts y borin lor..ok sat sun worked at pc show with apple! =) nice workin with her..enjoy! but this week didnt slack lor..i chiong man..but the ppl there r onli going mad for MAXONLINE..out of 10, mayb onli 2 wanna get a phone..and my sales sux..i was supposed to clear stock..but sad to say..hais..felt so stress up these 2 days..no slack but no sales..fucked up me..haiss!!! so 2nd day around 7plus..we all gave up..went shopping for things at 7.55pm with apple and joo ann..hees got an ipod earphone at onli $4!! great deal man..bcos it's ending..they wnana sell at $5..then i still go bargin till $4..typical auntie -> me! ..well quarreled with him..AGAIN i noe..lols without fail..bu after he saw wat i buy for him..he smiled..but i still cant be happy..still..i dun find the effort in him tryin to cherish me, and also the relationship..felt so upset n soo depressed.. haiss..i realli cant be meiqi anymore..i cant find the happiness in my life....... ok today..i was fuckin tired. as if i am a zombie walkin around..i looked at the mirror..i fucking wanna kill myself..hate myself SO MUCH!! hate my face, hate my FAT body..hate the feeling in my heart.. went sch.went lesson.went lec with baobeii. went hm. went slp. fucked up life . *i still cant forget watever happened when i saw ................... =( i realli feel so lousy..i feel so so so so INFERIOR.. i feel so so so so sux! ppl r pretty..ppl r cute..ppl r adorable..ppl have nice clothes, ppl have everything nice..ppl r gentle, ppl r slim, ppl r happy, ppl have their dreams fufiled..but WHY CANT I JUS HAVE ALL THESE! i wish to be pretty as them, wish to have MANY nice clothes like them, wish to be as gentle as them, most impt wish to be as slim as them, wish to be HAPPY like them..and of cos..how i wish my dreams is true..i wanna be wat i wish to be..but can i? INFERIOR TO OTHERS =( sobx.. oh ya, told apple abt my past sad life..told apple abt my fucked up life with few frens and onli him..i can c her effort in makin me her fren..i feel so happy n realli touched..thanks =)
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COS OF YOU AND ME;
I'M MEIQI, THE HAPPY ONE(: