here again to blog! seems like i blog almost everyday..cos it's hols..hols is borin! well well well..basically oso dunno wat to say..got lots to say actually but i dunno how to say out oso..eh siao meiqi le..today morning woke up, prepare..waitin for baobeii to come my hse..after tt, went 921 eat ban mian! but didnt finish it..went to suntec to return phones..nt workin this weekend cos wanna celebrate fathers' day.. after returning phones, bought 1 ice cream, durian flavour at suntec conventional hall! damn nice lor..$3.20 for a small cup and it taste like freeze durian flesh!..not like ice cream at all! damn nice..worth it! after suntec, headed to bugis..went sim lim to see lappy with baby..erm..hais..how i wish he can buy 1 lappy so tt he can always come my hse n use instead of stayin at hm to play game..rather him playin beside me than away frm me =( tts made me so upset today..wanted to shop at bugis village actually..but...i got no money to spend after tt shopping spree with baobeii durin our 19th monthsary le..so decide nt to shop..so on the way back, pass by this beautiful pair of shoe..and i cant resist the temptation of buyin..guess wat? we quarreled again!
we stoned for sometime! he asked me to think myself if i wanna buy or nt..so after some time of consideration i wanted to buy..and he keep stoppin me too..say wat waste money this n tt..so nvm lor..i dun wanna buy lor then i go..then he scold me say i throw temper..fuck..i veri angry n walk away..n guess wat he scold me again and ask me reflect on myself if is my fault or his! damn! he was the 1 who told me to consider MYSELF and he's the one who STOP me and i give in and he's the one who scold me 1st...ok after so much..he apologised and we make up again..haiss at tt moment, i realli realli feel like breakin up with him so much..i felt veri tired, be it mentally or physically..i jus feel so sux of everythin esp myself..i feel sad..i feel depressed..i wishh to be alonee..but i love him..*realli dunno how to carry on with my life.
hais dunno y this hols doesnt seem to be any hols to me..i dun have any mood to do anythin at all! wish to go alot places with my baby, but then we've got no money, and he got no time..this hols shd be full of time cos it's a short break for all of us but he take part in competiton and somehow i felt veri neglected..dunno y i feel tt gaming is a killer..it drift us apart..actually i noe, and i can feel even though he denys, frens, game will always replace my position in his heart..haiss how i wish i can go sun tannin with him like b4, how i wish i can go roller bladin with him like b4, how i wish i can go shopping so much like b4, how i wish we can go back to our honeymoon stage when everything is so sweet for us..i wish..i wish..i realli wish tt we nv change..but indeed, we do, the feelings no longer strong, the relationship no longer tasteful and nw it became so bland and weak..*unwanted anymore.
baby i jus wanna tell u i realli love u, but the care u giving me is no longer heart warming as b4 le..i need ur love so much so much...but u failed to give tt piece of care n concern to me.. =(
i wish to dance*like others do.wish to dance all my troubles away.wish to dance but,any1 wanna accept me as a dancer? i felt lousy. sux.
SWEET LIL MOMENTS;
COS OF YOU AND ME;
I'M MEIQI, THE HAPPY ONE(: