pay haven come yet and i already calculated i got no money left t spend le =( hais quite sad abt it cos i got to clear my debts 1st..great sg sales is here!! realli got alot to buy!! but..haisssss i know i sux la but i realli cant take the feeling without shopping life! sorry baobeii for makin a big hole in ur pocket le..recently i haven been myself..feel tt i lost myself..i couldnt be real happy anymore..i am tired..i am upset abt smth which realli kept in my heart but i jus couldnt say out cos i dun wan to upset ppl bcos of my own feelings..haiss my shattered dream =( couldnt take the painful feelings when i saw the ppl in sch! esp when they r wearin the t shirt!! i always tot i forget the pain already..but never..haiss i felt so lousy..i felt so sux..i felt like dyin cos i realli cant liven up myself as b4 anymore =( i told ppl i'm fine..but i am not..i lost myself..i realli wish to find meiqi back..but guess.....she's gone somewhere real far.....

er jie got back frm HK today le..well..seriously i am soo envious of her being able to enjoy so much happily..hais always wanted to go overseas with the 1 i love, no matter is my bf or frens..but i always failed..i am nt blaming them cos i of cos know their difficulties..but...i realli wish to..realli so much so much ...quite disappointing of watever happened.. =( haissss anyway stll got to thanks er jie for buyin tt hugo boss pure purple..another thing canceled frm wish list..

oh ya got back my biz acc test today..didnt fail but didnt score..guess this sem my gpa got to drop to 1.87 again! not funny.. haiss..

ok i haven been getting much rest nowadays..year 2 life is damn damn damn busy!! haiss number of modules increased, worst, it much more harder than year 1..i almost cant take it le..i need to slp..i am soo tired everyday in sch..my dark ring..wth so obviouss...argh saddiiee..hais sat n sun still need to work..i realli dunno how long can i hold on le...*yawns projss ..icass!! I AM GOING MADDDD! anyway took 3 icas paper already..and flunk all 3 of them =) gd luck to me then..

tmr is my beloved sister birthday!..now in advance..i shall wish her.. "HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER!! " =) be happy and stay pretty always!! muack!

got lots of things to do..moved to my new room..alot things to pack..hais tues BF ICA1 and wed BA ICA 1..and i dun have the mood to study for it..i realli dun and i haven started anything yet nt even a word!!..and tues got to hand in BA homework..IF THIS GOES ON..I AM REALLI GOING MAD..I CANT TAKE all this..fuck man..dunno wat realli got into me!!! hais idiot..i wan money..i wan EVERYTHING TO BE NICE FOR ME!!!!!!

fri is vesak day..met baobeii at noon and went orchard with him..on the way there at mrt station met yanlin and sauming..so qiao they oso going orchard..lols but we serparated cos i wanna go heeren and they wanna go fareast..so i shopped for sometime at heeren..saw quite alot nice stuffs but due to money issue..i onli end up buyin 1 everlast racerbAck top..and 1 necklace for sis's wedding dinner..then we move on to fareast to shop..wanna buy tt bag but last piece..hais was shoppin for skirt and shorts but saw nth tt caught my eyes..onli 1 skirt i think which cost $50! dun wanna spend tt unneccessary $$ tts y give up!! saddieee....

sat..our 18th monthsary! hees..met him again then we went bishan..watched a movie..it's been a long time since i watched a movie with him..we watched poisedon..dunno issit correct spelling..lols..a nice show indeed! i dun regret spending money for tt show! cool n exciting! then after tt we went shopping again for my sis wed present and mothers' day present..bough a precious moment bathroom set for her my sis..sweeettt man! and bought a mango jeans perfume for my mum! hees..oh ya! gave him perfume as our 18th months present! happy mothers' day to all mummys!!

sun which is yday..woke up at 3am plus to prepare le..sis's big day today!! well..dunno if consider happy or sad day..realli happy cos she is xing fu kuai le..but damn sad cos she is nt going to live together with us again! haiss..saw how my grandma hug her n cry..realli feel like hugging her and cry oso..cos da jie i realli miss u...hees..then the moment when she serve the tea to dad n mum..it's so touching..have some tears in my eyes =(
dinner at night..food is nt bad but i dun realli like the environment...cos the management sux..lols..anyway dun talk abt unhappy things..1st time sitting at main table..end of dinner realli miss her alot..got alot alot to tell her but somehow dunno how toopen my mouth and say..da jie..hope u tian tian kuai le..lovee euu veri much!! jie fu..better treat my da jie well..cos she's precious to all of us here!!

ok today! had cost accountin lesson at 9pm butt..i overslept cos i haven been slpin well these few days!! so reached sch at 11am! had taxation ICA1..and...i flunkk it.. haisss 1st ICA ..crazy somemore is taxation..so had break at 12..start lesson at 2..between the break..got to noe how lousy i am..hais i failedd again..y mus they mark so strict..i dunno y..i seem to force myself smile in front of others..but when actually i wanna stay to myself onli..cos i dun feel happy at all..i am feeling pain..veri veri pain deep inside my heart..hais there goes my dreammm! =(
ok had to do proj now le..gd bye..

ok 1 hr + more is my audition le..this time i guess i cant afford to fail again le..wanna get in and i mus..i hope realli ltr can do it well..jus treat it as no 1 lookin at me le.. =) i wanna succeedd !! god give me luckk ..love god for the luck.. jiayou jiayou!

anyway tmr will be workin..boring..but nvm double pay..so be happy abit..anyway..NE essay to be handed on tues..and till now..nt a single word i have written..shit man..mon have to pia liao..if nt.... DIE!! recently got nth much to post..jus nt much excitin things in my life..hees..haven got enough slp recently..got to slp soon le! if nt tmr wont be able to get up to work again!! gd nitee every1..

P.S. baobeii 18th monthsary comin! =) lovee yaa muchiiee hees..thankss for all urr lovee!!

new bloggskinn..look strange..dunno y..nvm dun caree.boredd..fuckk.damn angry with papa n mama..dun understand them at all..guess they wont understand mee too..we can nv gett alongg..i dunn wishh to live anymoree..HATE..